A Surprising Diary

I was organizing my desk today and found one of the many notebooks I had tried to start a diary in. I looked at the first page, expecting to read one of my rants. Instead, I found a diary introduction. Strangely, it addressed one of the themes in my English class ("What kind of world is this?"). This is what I wrote.

This is my first diary entry in about thee years, so this entry may have a lot to talk about. But let me get this general idea a basic walk through. Life is never simple. Personally, I think that Life is fabricated of layers and layers that vary in degree of goodness, badness, mourning, and celebration. Life is generally viewed in two ways: the good and the bad. But it is never really one way or the other; It's never simple.
People throughout time have wondered 'Why are we here?' People have looked up to a higher being or persons or a god or multiple gods to explain why people exist. I remember in seventh grade, I was required to take a course in religion. One of the lessons the teacher taught was that God (the Christian God) put us down here because he loves us, the people. There has been so many ties since that lesson when I've wondered, 'Is there really some higher being out there?' My heritage, the Filipinos, is one of the two countries in Asia who has Christianity as their national religion, so my family is naturally Christian-Catholic. At least, to a certain point. I guess that there is a higher being out there, watching us. At Escrima, or the martial arts of the Filipinos, there is a command pronounced 'pamajé', which means 'pray'. Our head guru tells us that we should pray to whichever higher being it is we pray to. He says, "To whomever you pray to, whatever your religion is, just pray." He just says to pray; it doesn't have to be a good long prayer asking for something. It could just be a short thank you. But if yo listen to what I hear, and interpret his words the way I do, Guru implies that a person should pray to someone of a spiritual high being to at least thank him or her or them for life.

This long introduction brings me back to my initial statement and reason of these following entries. Life is never simple. As one reads along, though my experiences and thought, Life is never simple. There are always things that will make people wonder about things that are obvious and not obvious. Life is never simple because of the many views and options and possibilities that it could be viewed or experienced. I guess that is the general purpose in Life: to go through choices and feelings and thoughts, and to reflect and learn about what Life is meant to be.

When I read what I wrote, I was actually surprised that I thought about this sort of topic. I was even more surprised that I even wrote my thoughts down. At the beginning of the second semester, when the questions "What kind of life is this? How should we live in it?", were presented to the class, I thought That is something that people don't normally thing about. But I think that this entry actually contradicted my assumption. Now, I think that the question theme isn't such an ambiguous theme.